October - November 2004
October 22 2004
Hello... hello... hello...
Is there anybody out there?
Yes, I'm still alive. I hit one of those big depressions where all I wanted to do when I wasn't at work was lay around and read. So I haven't written in two months, partly because I just couldn't get motivated to write, and partly because I wasn't doing anything worth writing about.
I'm still not doing anything worth writing about, but at least now I'm writing about it!
On the bright side, I've been getting a lot of reading done. I've finished Neal Stephenson's 3-volume Baroque Cycle, read some interesting nonfiction (mostly history and sociology, plus a fun Aleister Crowley bio), and am now re-reading Dracula (one of those books I never get tired of).
Also on the bright side, as much as I've wanted to just stay in bed, I've kept mustering the self-discipline to drag my butt to the gym on a regular basis. Go, me!
I have finally started to write again now. I'm working on the next bondage memoir, predictably entitled "My Fourth Time Tied Up." I don't know how long it will take me to finish, though. This one is going to be a lot longer than any of the others, and it's also a lot racier, which makes it harder to write... as soon as I sit down and start remembering the details, I get all hot and bothered and pretty soon I'm typing one-handed, and then I'm forgetting to type at all... How the hell does anyone ever get a whole erotic novel written?
Ah, the joys of solitary sex. Yes, when I say I'm not doing anything worth writing about, that means no one's getting tied to my bed. The last time anyone besides me was in my bed was the last time you read about it... back at the beginning of August, when I had my sweet revenge on Valkyrie. I'm not looking for any playmates right now... going through one of my even more solitary than usual phases...
Speaking of Valkyrie, she's having a fine time in her new digs in Southern California, and she says to say hi to all of you. She's got a new boyfriend, and she says she hasn't yet got up the nerve to show this site to him... hee hee!
October 28 2004
I’ve been sticking to my workout schedule faithfully ever since the spring, when I started working out in preparation for the Big Memorial Day Bet. The idea was for me to look good because Valkyrie would be getting to look at my naked body a lot during that bet. So I got my body as toned up as it had ever been, and in the end I was very, very glad about that, since my naked body ended up being displayed to a lot more people than just Valkyrie on that ignominious occasion. I declared after that I wanted to always keep my body looking as good as I could, because I’d learned that you never know when someone might snap a compromising photo of you and put it on the internet. Not most people’s first reason for staying in shape, but it works for me.
Inspired by my diligence, Neige has now begun a strict workout regimen. This is a first for her. Neige is positively the wimpiest girl I’ve ever wrestled. She never even came close to beating me. She’s super cute, in a soft and slightly chubby kind of way, but she’s anything but fit.
So now Neige has declared a new goal in life: she wants to get fit enough to beat me at wrestling. Ha! It will never happen, of course. But I’m sure looking forward to her trying, and I’ve told her I’m up for it whenever she thinks she’s ready. After all, I owe her some serious payback for Memorial Day.
She says she’s not planning on challenging me until at least the end of winter. Smart girl, though not smart enough. Whenever the challenge does happen, be sure that you’ll be reading all about her humiliation here in this blog.
Meanwhile, work proceeds on the tale of My Fourth Time Tied Up (speaking of humiliation...). Hopefully, it will be posted by the end of the year. I have hatched an evil plan in regards to this story. Although Kristine was brave enough to answer my call for artwork with those two beautiful photo pieces of hers, not one artistically-inclined reader has yet sent me any illustrations to go with my writing on this site. So here’s my plan: after I post the first installment of the story, I won’t post the next installment until someone sends me a good illustration, either for that installment or for something I wrote previously. And after I post the second installment, it will take yet another illustration submission to get me to post the third installment, and so on. This is a long story, which will probably take about six installments.
Yeah, I know it’s evil, but if that’s what it takes to get you talented readers to do some art, then I’m willing to be evil. The first installment is still far from done, but I’m giving you this advance warning so you can start drawing now. Remember, illustrations can be for any of the stories on this site, including both the ones in the Stories section, and the blog entries that tell the stories of my more recent adventures like the bets with Valkyrie. See the Submission page for details.
November 12 2004
What? Another birthday coming up? That can’t be right… I could have sworn I already had one, just last year!
Sigh… it’s true… on Wednesday, this little Scorpio will officially be older. And, my goodness, I remember mentioning my last birthday in this blog… which means I’ve been blogging for over a year now… albeit sporadically, of late.
The one nice thing about this birthday is that my body actually looks and feels younger than I did a year ago! My workout regimen is working out!
I’m worried about Bitter Pie, aka Tena, aka the Deletist, my San Francisco-dwelling sister blogger, creator of the brilliant indy comic book Bitter Pie, incredibly talented musician, and, if Nicky is to be believed, Nicky’s first love from when he was just a wee little teenage Nicky. Her website has vanished from the web (“has been disabled,” according to the generic page I get when I try to go there). I emailed her about it days ago, and she hasn’t replied (and she’s replied to me in the past, even though I’m just a starstruck little fangirl and haven’t even had the nerve to introduce myself to her at any of her shows). What’s happened to her? I hope she’s okay… she leads a pretty edgy life sometimes.
I was so worried that I called Nicky about it.
“Yeah,” he said, “I emailed her, too, and she hasn’t replied to me, either. But then, she’s never heard of me.”
“What?” I said. “I thought she was your first love!”
“Yeah,” he said, “but I had a different name back then. It’s been a long time since I was in touch with her.”
“What the fuck?” I said. “Just how long has it been?”
“About sixteen years,” he said.
“Sixteen years?” I said. “You’re full of shit. You had links up to each other’s sites!”
“Doesn’t mean she knows who I am,” he said.
Sometimes Nicky’s conversational style is suspiciously like his topping style.
Eventually, I suggested that maybe we should look for her, though I wasn’t sure how we’d do it.
“No,” he said. “The last time we talked, she told me that I was too protective of her and that she wanted me to stop trying to help her.”
I couldn’t believe this. “That was sixteen years ago!” I yelled at him.
“As far as I know, she hasn’t taken it back,” he said.
He drives me up the fucking wall sometimes. I still haven’t decided if I’m going to try to track her down myself. I sure hope she’s okay.
November 19 2004
Thanksgiving is almost upon us… time for me to pack up and head back east to the parental abode for the rest of the month, to see nieces and nephews and to be subjected to endless nagging about why I’m not married yet.
Here are some Thanksgiving thank-yous:
Thanks to Torti for the fan mail! You (and several other people I can think of) will be happy to hear that I plan to post the first installment of “My Fourth Time Tied Up” very soon after I return at the beginning of December. I just hope some of my artistically talented readers will be sending me some illustrations!
Thanks to Old Cutter John for being the calm voice of reason!
Thanks to Neige for your declaration that you’ll be challenging me to wrestle in the spring, when you get your weak little body into shape, and thanks for your new declaration that you’ll be coordinating with Yoko to have her “standing by” online to “advise” the winner! You’ve provided me with fresh motivation to stick to my workout routine, and you’ll be providing me and Yoko with plenty of fun in the spring, after I kick your uppity little butt!
And thanks to Yoko, Nicky, and Valkyrie for the birthday wishes!