June 2004
June 7 2004
Whew.
Well, I'm a free woman again. A thoroughly humiliated free woman with some painfully sore body parts, but a free woman.
All the entries chronicling my week of humiliating punishment are archived here in the Blog Archive... Naturally, I was forced to give my word that I'd keep them up on this site for my readers' continued amusement and my continued embarrassment.
And of course, I have to leave those photos up, too... but at least Geminica took pity on me and allowed me to take down that most humiliating picture of my naked privates. Thank God! And thank you, Geminica! I've certainly learned my lesson about accusing you of timidity!
I'm taking yet another day off from work... fortunately, they love me there, and I had tons of accumulated sick leave and vacation leave saved up!
Jennifer from Naked Oblivion (hi, Jennifer!) wrote almost as soon as I was free, to say:
I’m fascinated by this whole process – the idea that you submitted for an entire week. (I hope your boss didn’t mind!) You don’t have to answer these questions, but I am curious. Is it scary? Is it fun? Is it both? I have only submitted to domination for an hour or two at a time, so I have no idea what it’s like to be topped (or to top!) for an extended period.
It's scary, Jennifer, if you do it the way I did it: no "safe words" (I never, ever play with "safe words"... boo-ooring! Lame!), and tops who you know you can't manipulate with shows of anger or tears.
Is it fun? I don't even know. I can't even think about it that way. It was the most intense experience of my life. I think it was what Nicky calls "initiatic."
I recommend it to you, Jennifer, if you can find the right top or tops! And if you want to try Valkyrie's trick of having your top get suggestions from your friends, you can count on me to contribute plenty!
Valkyrie stayed with me all the way through Saturday afternoon, and Nicky has been checking up on me. Despite my abject humiliation, especially over those photos, I feel strangely euphoric. I was pretty shaky for a while... When Valkyrie told me that I'd been punished enough and that she was setting me free, I just kind of curled up into a little ball for a while, and I still find myself getting weepy on and off. But I feel high, I feel buzzed, I don't feel bad.
There was a while there at first where Valkryie couldn't get me to come out of fetal position and respond to her like an adult, but she brought me out of it by reading me some of the crazy torture suggestions that she and Neige had decided not to use. There was one girl who had suggested that they humiliate me by forcing me to dance around singing Rick James's "Super Freak!" This maniac had even sent in the complete lyrics! I laughed so hard at that that it brought me out of my semi-catatonia, and I've been in a good mood ever since... if only because I'm so grateful that they chose not to use that one on me!
June 14 2004
I heard from the maniac who sent Valkyrie the “Super Freak” suggestion! She’s a Tribe.net person, that’s where she discovered this blog. Her name is Sam and it turns out that she actually has forced her own submissives to sing “Super Freak” to her! Awesome! I told her that I was still glad that that one didn’t get used on me, but that I was going to do it to someone else next time I got the chance! Hee hee!
Another awesome Tribe.net chick, Kristine, sent me a couple of beautiful pieces of photo art for this site... I’ll try to get them up soon!
Damn it! Ace had to go and post this blog entry, causing me to laugh my ass off! Just when the bruises were finally almost healed, now I have to wait for the whole thing to grow back!
Aside from that, life is quiet. Reading tons of Neal Stephenson, being a hermit, and having happy dreams.
June 24 2004
I know, I’ve been neglecting my blogging... I was so highly motivated when I was regularly being shackled naked to my chair and ordered to write on pain of diabolical erotic tortures... next to that, my tricks of self-motivation aren’t terribly effective.
On the other hand, I’ve actually hung onto my motivation to keep working out regularly. One bright side to the humiliation of having those photos of me posted: at least I’d been working out a lot, so they caught me in the best shape I’d been in in years! Now I’m determined to maintain it, and so far so good. So next time you’re having trouble getting motivated to work out, just remember: you never know when photos of your naked butt might end up on the web!
Mostly, I’m not blogging because I’m not doing anything, except for going to work, going to the gym, and doing a whole lot of reading (Nicky’s got me hooked on Tim Powers now... incredible writer).
But I haven’t forgotten you, dear readers! (how could I ever, after all those spankings you sent me?) I’ve started working on the fourth installment of my bondage memoirs...
And I’ve got the Art Gallery section up, featuring two luscious pieces of photographic art by Kristine Cacas, a reader from the Philippines. Thanks Kristine!
Hey all you other artists: don’t leave Kristine all alone in the gallery! Submit! Big pieces like Kristine’s, or tiny little sketches I can scatter around the site as eye candy, or illustrations for the stories... or whatever else you want to send!
Maybe Geminica will send me something... I certainly know that she’s not timid!